"On the way ." Can't sleep , insomnia I guess.
"Janganlah lambat sangat esok kelas jam Lapan ya buk."
"Rightio." I miss him .
Hey ,
How're you boy ?
Fine I guess.
How is it ?
Beautiful arent they ?
How's Jannah ?
How're you ?
I am fine here . I guess so .
You're not even reply my ask on your ask.fm , Remember ?
It's just like two days or three we've been talking and chatting .
Yet , you're being so nice to me .
and You know what , I've tht kind of sixth sense .
But I ignored it .
and I've just realised that my blog post was posted in a weird way and very creep , because it was like very like step-by-step , ad I should realised earlier .
Btw , I dont know how to move on .
I dont know what is Redha with this one thing . only this one thing .
Its hard for me .
Tho , i thought I already completely moving on and redha , yadayada orang pesan suruh aku buat . but I just cant I dont know . Or maybe because I dont want to .
I dont want to face the reality that you're not here anymore .
that you're not going to say like "kenapa aku cerita dekat kau eh?" "Aku pun tak tau kenapa aku cerita dkt kau." "Kau sama lah macam mia." " Kau takut kenapa?" " Janganlah takut tejazz."
and for every conv. you'll be always the first one to say " Fi Hizillah Teja, Gotta go." "Jaga diri jangan takut. Need to go."
I guess so , I am the one who dont want to face the reality am I ? living in my own world , and I've just realised , like completely , I was thinking it was you , when I was on wechat with you brother . and when on your twitter . I guess it was you and like I was talking to you but then its actually your brother .
you shouldnt see me crying rite now , everybodys shouldnt , no ? like seriyesly , hingus meleleh . haha .
Man , i miss you . like very much . InsyaAllah , going to read Yaasing for you tomorrow . but I cant promise tht I wont cry . Even when people mention your name , Its alrealy makes me cry real hard , and also , yesterday , they're talking bout this one senior named Az , and I was like , "Az."
"I miss him."
Haha . Lame-o tahap gaban , am I aite? Its already 3 am . So , better get readdyhh with the bed . Going to have english listening test for tomorrow .
G'bye Sodazz . May we meet in Jannah insyaAllah ameen . :')