28.1.16

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Sometimes It just need one person to believe in everything you do. Just that one person. and everything will be okay.

I sat myself alone in my room. Counting days to go back to studentlife a few more days. These days, I am quite distracted with a lot of things running through my mind. One of it is, Dream. I ask myself, what is my dream, but I got nothing. I don't have any dreams. Maybe I have one, or two, but I don't have the courage to try to achieve it. and for the time being, I can only have hopes. What I am hoping the most right now is, I want myself to be happy. I want myself to be happy, and I want to have someone that will believe in me, believe in everything I do. Although I am not sure who is that one person. But I hope I know who is that one person and I hope that one person will believe and make me happy. I feel so stupid sometimes. Because when people ask me what I want to be-- my ambition, I don't know what to answer. I don't even know what I want to be. God, I want to die when I am 20. and now I am 20. Am I gonna die now? I don't know. what is happiness. (Damn! my thoughts is so serabut see, dia pergi masuk benda lain) Marriage wont bring happiness. Family? Friends? Ha! I realised something. I really need to fix my negative thoughts. If you can my mind, my mind was like hundred percent can only see negativity only. I dont know why, but Its hardly to be positive dah nowadays. Aft. I finished my sch. I was like changing into somebody else. I hardly can think positive. I always see negative side of something. and that's why I got ..... --stop.
Hey, why don't we try to be happy and appreciate the happiness, the little things that Allah gave to us. no? Banyak lagi benda yang boleh dibuat alasan untuk gembira. likeeeeee . . . kawan-kawan, keluarga yang kita ada, Anak sedara baruuuuuu hahaha. 

there will be a lot of reasons for us to be happy, why choose not to be happy when you can be grateful with what you have, no?


Eh dah syawal.

Malam 30 sepatutnya. Itulah apa yang aku harapkan, walaupun bukan boleh puasa pun. Tapi, masih mahu punya waktu berdoa dalam waktu² ramadan....