I admit, I am kind of-- a very observant person. I look for every detail in a person, attitude, behavior, and stuff. Too observant some might think I am crazily weird. This happens when a friend of mine realizes that when I was describing a guy that we know. I don't know why, but it might be because of how I see how some things were treated unfairly before, that I became a very observant. I don't think that I am being irrelevant with things. It's not that I didn't tabayyun first with anything that I might see as something that's unfair, yeah but, human can sometimes be irrelavant-- blaming other people, while they don't see the fault in themselves.
The issue of "Tak ajak" is one of the irrelevant thing that I've been thinking lately. It happens when some of us sometimes when we unintended went somewhere without telling some people from the group, the 'tak ajak' issue will raise. Sometimes I feel like, why ah this kind of things happens? Why ah some people show how they feel bluntly without even considering whether they used to do like that certain too? That 'tak ajak' issue was quite a funny issue for me, because, honestly, everyone must have been thru that. But the difference are, some might act maturely and just think positively, and some might bluntly express how they're so irritable over those what they called as 'unintended-lah-sangat'. We keep on pointing fingers to others saying other people 'tak ajak' but then are we that perfect that we always 'ajak' everyone to join us when we went to 'lepak' together? This is something that makes me ponder.
Sometimes I do feel like 'Alaa, tak ajak.' and kind of 'terasa' irritable, sad etcetc, But somehow I try to be more considerate. Thinking of pro and cons and how I should be careful with my word, thinking about how sometimes I don't 'ajak' pergi lepak mana-mana jugak. Sometimes, the friendship itself became so complicated and hurtful is because we're too focusing on this petty mere things. We're too focus on this small things that shouldnt even become a problem, and eventually we forgot about the bigger things that we should have taken care of.
Sometimes, we should take a break from talking and ponder more. That's the missing point. Ponder. If we ponder more, the best outcomes of it is how we will become very 'berlapang dada' and that is obviously serendah-rendah iman dalam ukhuwah.
Long is it? Ahahahah.
I honestly, have lots of thoughts on a lot of things, on alot of people, on why these people do these and that, but I just can't express it because some people always think that I am so irrelevant. Maybe yes, maybe no. Maybe its right that my thoughts are just a thoughts that are irrelevant and not mature, and that's why when something happens I would choose to shut myself and refrain myself from giving any opinion.
Thats maybe why I am end up writing this long entah-apa-apa broken english thoughts T_T
dah ah. kbye.
dah ah. kbye.