29.3.17

Huge Resentment

"What is your current fear? The thing that fear you the most atm?"She asked her, under her breath. 

Tears starts to. Stream down her eyes and cheeks.
"This huge resentment. Its related with my current biggest fear." She bring her hand to her chest.  It hurts everytime.

"Resentment?" She asked.

I always resent myself.
I always have this painful aching sadness, as if I know how I wont meet any man who would love me,
As if I know how I would never be loved by anyone,
Because of my ridiculousness, as If they can see through me,  how bad I am,  how rotten I am,  that I dont deserve a single love. 
I always have this resentments in myself, 
This sadness that always ache me so much,  I hate myself so much.

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Eh dah syawal.

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