Thank you, you—

And [remember] when your Lord proclaimed, 'If you are grateful, I will surely increase you [in favor]; but if you deny, indeed, My punishment is severe.' (14:07)

I never be thankful. Enough. Well a human indeed.  A very typical human being who keeps on seeing only bad from all the good. But,  enough with being ungrateful. It times to be more grateful and thankful.

So, I took some of time, and ponder, and reflect—

21 years living with lots of love and care from people around me, yet I keep on saying that nobody loves me. Yes, thanks for the paranoid, but seriously? Things can be change. While I thought nobody loves me, but my mom remember my birthday, which I thought she never did cuz what, 10 orang anak kot hahaha.
But she remember mine. A super mom indeed. 
Knowing that all of these people, which I call family, including my dad, they are actually trying their best to help me during my therapy session,  try not to stressed me out,  this makes me realised that they love me. 

And I got a bunch of lovely friends. A very lovely bubbly, good friend around me.  College friend, housemates, ex house mate who always bwen worried to death tah apa atiqab tu buat dalam bilik, jangan dah mati sudah, celebrate my birthday every freaking year, I am so grateful for them, batchmate who always be there for me,  at the very least in their doa',  my so called stranger but not anymore who always there supporting me, sbhanallah.

When I ponder on all of this, I can clearly know and see, I've got a lot of people who loves me. 21 years living, being poured with love and care,  from these people,  I am not thankful enough. And I regret this.

Alhamdulillah, I am still alive. And healthy till now.  For more years together with these good bunch people, moga Allah limpahkan rahmat dan kasih sayangnya pada semua-semua yang sayang dan jaga aku, juga yang meluat dan bencikan aku. Haha.

Dan hopefully,  we will always be grateful and thankful semuanya dengan nikmat yang kita selalu tak nampak atau endah.

Moga surga buat semua, terima kasih untuk doa dan cinta selama ni—

regards,
t.jz / Jen. ♡