20th july, Attack—

I am so tired but I can't bring myself to sleep. 

I don't know if things getting out of my hands or what but I start to have another attack from time to time, frequent than the usual.

I start to feel like I wanna throw up sometimes when I remembered of certain incident.

Just recover from another attack just now. But I still feel like theres something stuck in  my throat. 

Uncomfortable and painful.

I caught myself sobbing and released heavy sigh in between crying, like I need to let go of this clump in my chest but it doesn't feel okay at all. 

It still feel heavy,

It still feel like there's something stuck in my throat. Abruptly crying without any reason is tiring.

My tears just keep on pouring as if theres something bothering me from the inside but I can't figure what it is.

I just need some sleep to function for tomorrow.

Just let me sleep. I am tired.