Its among the biggest thing and choice that I have to make. Its among the thing that will eventually affecting my whole life. I am counting the days, for the big days, where I’m going to make the biggest decision in my life. Where I need to be serious. Where I need to be more courageous. Even my tips of my fingers is tingling and cold, realizing how serious this matter can be. I am counting days, for the day that will bring the future that I wish there will be no fear, anymore. For the future that I will not resent and hate. I am counting days for a better future I am going to have. When there’s less fear less anxious and shudders. Where, I can be as free as the birds flying, as what other ‘normal’ people can achieve. Where non of my fear would stop me from getting bigger and higher. I am counting days, for a future that I feel like I want to live in it, with least sorrow and pain, least monstrous and more angel-like. Peace and harmony.
