Another attack

23:36
An hour after reading hiatus.
Another attack?
I am just finished reading hiatus.
It triggers me.
After few hours finished reading it, the picture of the story still playing in my mind. And suddenly I starts to cry. And and I can barely breath. My heart ache so much. Suffocated. I feel like something stuck between my tengkuk leher. It takes me 3 - 4 minutes to wait for myself to calm. Since I am all alone in my locked 🔒 room, I need to handle it myself. I try not to think about the book, the story or anything else. I only focus on my breathing. my right hand try to control my breathing while my left hand squeezed the pillow case in order to control my breathing. It have been so long since I felt like this.  Like I cant breath and move.  After a few minutes of trying to control my breathing, I am getting okay. But i am still crying. And I fell asleep. I woke up after a few minutes of unintentional sleep and waking up crying. Then  immediately I jump out of my bed and take wudu'. After performing solat, now I feel much better. And I am listening to my fav surah, surah Yusuf. alhandulillah