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I can't sleep,

so I write.

I am crying,

So I write

I write,

because I miss,

someone who is very dear to me.

but he left,

long gone,

before I could even ready,

and things just getting worse,

day by day.

and here my rambling thoughts,

something is bothering me and I feel bad about it,

I feel bad about myself for letting it bothers me so much.

Can I feel good about myself, for a minute, without the feeling that I am faking it,

a genuine loving myself? 

Can I not have these thoughts, and be genuinely happy, even for a short while?

Can I not have these feeling,

numb even for a while,

is it hard?

can I be selfish for a while?

and just shut everything out, and kill myself,

this is so tiring,

I want to give up so much,

I feel sad without anyone hurting me,

I feel sad without knowing the real reason,

I feel the need to cry every time,

I want this feeling to end,

can I?